My story is a lot like others. It's full of anger, sadness, loss, heartache, confusion hostility, and a longing for anything that would take the pain away. My name Mark Moore and addiction ran my life. I grew up in a family of addicts and alcoholics. Getting messed up was all I knew, so I got good at it. At age 12 was my first introduction to a reality not of God's choosing but of the enemies. Growing up in an abusive household all my brother and I knew was how to live in survival mode. I learned how to steal, cheat, manipulate, and how to channel my anger to get what I wanted. Naturally I don't believe that's what I wanted as a child but we as people adapt to our surroundings. So the only option I thought I had at the time was to get really good at being really bad. Over the course of my life I never raised above that bar. Only my behaviors and attitude towards this world I created darkened. I spent an unprecedented about of time dwelling in the darkness that was my soul. In September of 2017 I was a day maybe hours away from putting an end to my self induced torture known as addiction. I was tired of being mean and angry and neglecting what it means to be a man and a father. The only way out was death, and I was ready.
I don't know why but I raised my head and asked God if he was real to save me from myself. Little did I know but the Savior came to me in the form of my worst enemy, the police. And boy did he slap those cuffs on hard. It was like my whole life was ripped away in an instant, my kids were put in state custody, their mom and I couldn't have contact, and I caught new charges. But in that instant, I knew this time was different, it was by far past the first time I had cuffs on but in that moment I had peace, yes I was scared because of my current circumstances but I was at peace and I didn't know why. Philippians 4:7 says that God will give you a peace that surpasses ALL understanding. And I had no understanding at the time. I worked hard in my first 2 years to stay sober and to get my kids back. There were times I just threw my hands up but in that moment they landed on the Lord's shoulders in a soft but firm loving way I'd never seen from my earthly father. I wanted to give up I was fearful and a coward. Isaiah 40:29 says He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. I've never done sober and it was scary but their came a time that it just started to make sense. There was light in a world so dark. I had spent my entire life curled up in a corner of isolation and making others feel the same way I did. I worked as a peer specialist for 3.5 years and I loved it but now I volunteer in other ways. December 30 2022 my first time stepping through the doors of Celebrate Recovery. It was the step study graduation. I knew from their testimonies that I needed it. A couple months later I joined the 2023 step study. And here I am tonight graduation it myself. I don't think I dug as deep as I could've, and I regret it now because I let my fear and lack of trust impaired what God led me to do. I know that life is a constant battle, but The Lord will never leave me nor forsake me. He is my rock and my firm foundation. He is my God. Today I'm here as Mark a leader in Celebrate Recovery and I am a firm believer in Jesus Christ. I struggle with being forthcoming with my hurts habits and hang ups and I have victory over chemical abuse and broken relationships. Thank you.
Growing up I drank alcohol, but my drinking did not become a problem until I moved to Maui, Hawaii. I struggled with alcohol for four years after that. On May 6, 2010, I woke up about 7:00 AM and for some reason I just said, "what am I doing with my life? What the heck is going on with me?" I knew that God had a better plan for my life. We lived on the 3rd floor of an apartment building, and I looked out the window and saw cars going by. I could hear the shower from the apartment below me turn on and I just thought, what was going on. How did I get to this point? I want my life back! I felt like these people are getting ready for work and here I am looking for another shot, or anything to take the shakes away.... I felt so sad, so hopeless, so tired. I just cried out to God, and I got on my knees and screamed and cried and asked God to please help me. I asked, "Dear Lord Jesus If you help me and meet me ½ way, I will do my part and together we can beat this. I need your help to protect me. I pushed through 9 days of hell. Those 9 days of hell were the start to my recovery. Prior to my recovery, I thought for sure this is my life. I will never get better and I'm sure others felt the same way. By the grace of God, the family and friend support and my willingness to getting better, here I am with 13 strong years. I have been so blessed and thankful every day for my recovery and that is the one thing that no-one can take from me. That's all mine! I earned it! This has been my greatest accomplishment. The best thing I have ever done for myself. Seven years into my recovery I got married (2017) and my husband and I bought a house together. I am so blessed to have my husband, family, friends and my health. Not to mention so many good people around me. I love my life and I am blessed because I am in recovery. I get to have my little nephews with me; we go camping, fishing, 4-wheeling, and the best feeling is that I am now trusted. Coming from being so broken, I am trusted, loved, responsible and just a better human. I love my life after recovery... We do and can get well. I always say "my crazy life landed me the best job ever. I have been employed with Recover Wyoming as a Certified Peer Specialist since 2022. It's a true blessing to give back to people who are trying or are in recovery. I could not have written a better story for my life than the one I am living in recovery. All the Glory to God!
Length of Recovery: 21 years
Recovery Pathway: Treatment (28 days) at Wyoming Recovery in Casper, Attend AA regularly (3/4 times per week)
Place of Residence: Cheyenne, WY; Laramie County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Retired WYDOT, CFD Volunteer, Recover Wyoming Volunteer (and former board member), Bethel Ministries Volunteer
When I reflect on my pathway to sobriety/recovery, I was never a "normal" drinker. Early on, I began having blackouts and losing control. I considered myself a maintenance drinker as I always had a good job and provided for my family. The bad habit became an addiction and took over my life. Relationships ruined, job lost, and health declining- I was at my bottom. Friends of friends from AA contacted me and I agreed to go to treatment (reluctantly). At treatment, we attended AA meetings regularly and I began hearing my story all over again. I was not unique and there was hope. That was the beginning of a long period of reconstruction leading to long-term recovery. Thank God, thank AA- my family too!
My name is Rhonda Brown, and I am a woman in long term recovery and for me that means, that I have not used methamphetamine since December 1999. My recovery has given me the courage to speak up and share my story with others and instill hope that recovery is possible. It has given me the ability and willingness to take risks and not stay quiet about addiction, reducing the stigma surrounding addiction. Today I am a dependable and loyal wife, mother, daughter, nana, friend, and employee.
I have been employed at Southwest Counseling Service for 20 years and have been blessed with many opportunities to work in the recovery field as a program operations supervisor, a peer specialist with a mastery and forensic endorsements, a peer specialist supervisor, a member of a team that created the training materials for Wyoming peer specialists, a co-facilitator for new peer specialists in Wyoming, and most recently a part of the Crisis Intervention Team in Sweetwater County.
Throughout this journey I have gained some of the most fulfilling friendships with others in recovery and have pride in myself and all the choices I have made, both good and bad, that brought me into recovery. I will never be quiet about where I come from and will continue to encourage others to use their experiences to help others and be the example of hope and recovery.
Length of Recovery: 7.61 years, 91.46 months, 2784 days (as of April 27th)
Recovery Pathway: Treatment and then 12 Step Program
Place of Residence: Cheyenne, WY; Laramie County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Managing Broker- Coldwell Banker The Property Exchange; Laramie County Commissioner
Being in long-term recovery from alcoholism is a life-changing experience that has allowed me to transform myself into a better version of who I used to be. Before I became sober, my life was in shambles. I was lost, hopeless, and had lost touch with myself and those around me. I was consumed by my addiction and didn't know how to break free from it. It was only when I hit rock bottom that I realized I needed to make a change and embark on a journey to recovery.
Through my journey to recovery, I have learned that it's essential to recover out loud. Sharing my story with others has been one of the most powerful tools in my recovery. It's allowed me to break down the walls of shame and stigma surrounding addiction and be a voice for those who may not have the courage to speak up about their struggles.
Recovering out loud has also been a way for me to hold myself accountable. When I share my story with others, I am reminded of the progress I have made and the work I still need to do. It also helps me stay motivated and committed to my sobriety. Recovery is not a one-time event but a continuous process that requires constant effort and dedication. Recovering out loud has helped me stay on track and continue to work towards my goals.
Being in long-term recovery has allowed me to earn my bonus life. I say this because I feel like I have been given a second chance at life. Before I got sober, my life was a constant cycle of addiction, self-destruction, and pain. Now, I have a life filled with hope, happiness, and purpose. Sobriety has allowed me to rebuild relationships that I had lost, pursue my passions, and live a life that I am proud of.
In conclusion, being in long-term recovery from alcoholism has been a transformative experience for me. Recovering out loud has allowed me to break down the walls of shame and stigma surrounding addiction, hold myself accountable, and be a voice for those who may not have the courage to speak up about their struggles. Sobriety has given me a second chance at life, and I am grateful for every day that I get to live it.
I started my recovery in the closet. I met with a sponsor and worked the steps, but I refused to walk in the doors of a meeting. I lived in a small town and didn't want anyone to know I was an addict. My faith played an enormous role in my recovery, and still does. After 12 years of recovery, I discovered there is such a thing as a Peer Support Specialist while I was in therapy. I signed up for the next training and became a Certified Peer Specialist. I also met my husband during that training! I got a job as a Behavioral Health Tech in Cheyenne and worked with men in recovery; including taking them to NA meetings. After more than a year, I moved to Newcastle to take a position as a Peer Specialist. I started an NA group in Newcastle then helped my husband start a Celebrate Recovery group. I have been so blessed in my life of recovery, regaining relationships which were broken; gaining relationships which are positive and healthy; and continuing to share my story with the hope of inspiring others to live a life of recovery.
My name is Taylor, and I am a person in long term recovery. I was addicted to everything, but my drugs of choice were alcohol and methamphetamine. I used for many years (17 to be exact) and nothing made sense to me until I was about to be sentenced to prison for 5-7 years. I had attempted 12-step programs since I was 18 off and on, tried rehab on my own twice, and once court ordered from which I absconded from. NOTHING MADE SENSE. I was graciously given another chance and was sentenced into the very drug court program I now work for. The chance at being taught real world things, like staying sober while job hunting and being rejected, staying sober while working 7 days a week and barely getting by, staying sober while walking around the very town I used in, these were all things no prison or rehab could have taught me. The drug court team acted as training wheels to life. I became very involved with 12-step programs where I learned how to accept things, work on things, grieve and handle shame. I learned that for me, my drug and alcohol use were moral dilemmas. To use would mean I would be a burden on those that I love and care about, and that wasn't okay with me anymore. I now have a skosh over three years clean and sober. I dedicate a good chunk of my time to working with addicts in various stages of the recovery process, and hope that I can help people recover by showing that it is possible.
Length of Recovery: 17 Years, one month, and 21 days
Recovery Pathway: My recovery has taken place inside of incarceration since I am still incarcerated and living a life of recovery and providing peer support to youthful offenders that participate in the YOTP treatment program.
Place of Residence: Rawlins, WY; Carbon County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: I currently work as a Certified Peer Specialist in the Youthful Offender Transition Program while incarcerated at the Wyoming State Penitentiary.
Hi, my name is Christopher Hicks, and I am an incarcerated person in the Wyoming State Penitentiary who currently works as a Certified Peer Specialist in the Youthful Offender Transition Program (VOTP) and this is my recovery story:
My recovery story starts out like most everyone else's who need recovery and hope in their life. I was lost in my struggles with mental illness, verbal and physical abuse, trauma, and addiction. As a youth, I struggled with severe depression, anxiety, anger and many traumatic experiences with violence that left me with post-traumatic stress.
As an adolescent I turned to self-medicating with drugs and alcohol as a way to cope with my trauma and mental illness. I used drugs and alcohol to numb the emotional pain and negative feelings I experienced. This of course was only temporary and never actually helped. In fact, it only ended up making things worse. I certainly never thought I could become an addict until I was one. My life was immensely difficult and filled with constant struggles, lots of pain and hardships that lead to suicide attempts.
As a teenager I was so lost in my struggles with addiction and mental illness that I did not see that I had fallen in with the wrong crowd until it was too late. One wrong decision is all it took to change my life forever. One night after heavily drinking, I was sitting in the back seat of a car when my best friend went into a home and shot and killed another person. That night would change many people's lives forever and that was one of the worst nights of my life. There is not one day that goes by that I do not wish I could go back in to time and change everything that happened. I am deeply remorseful and sorry for what happened. No person deserves to be a victim of a violent crime. Under the State of Wyoming's accessory laws, anyone who has a minor participation in a crime can be charged and sentenced in the same way as the person who committed the act. I was arrested and sentenced to a Life without Parole for this.
After becoming incarcerated, my struggles didn't go away. They got placed inside of a pressure cooker that helped to forge me into the man I am today. I still had all the same problems with depression and post-traumatic stress. I still had intense negative feelings and emotions. I still had irrational thought patterns and unrealistic beliefs that caused me to perceive reality inaccurately. I still had no coping mechanisms or skills to deal with my problems until the day I found my own personal recovery.
I had a reality check inside of incarceration and a deep desire to turn my life around, feel better, think healthier, and atone for the mistakes I made as a teenager. Finding recovery was the best thing to ever happen to me and was how I changed my life. Recovery showed me change is possible and it can help you too. Recovery gave me the tools I needed to process those negative feelings I was having without distorting them or putting negative interpretations on them that cause suffering. Recovery taught me how to challenge and change my irrational thinking and helped me to develop healthy coping skills and mental clarity.
Recovery empowered me to take responsibility for my life and change my attitude and outlooks. I began to reprioritize my values and beliefs and begin to make better and healthier choices one day at a time. Ultimately those days brought me closer to the person whom I wanted to be, and I changed.
While incarcerated in Wyoming Department of Corrections for the past eighteen years, I have taken every available opportunity to better myself through criminal thinking classes and Cognitive Behavioral mental health classes offered from WDOC. I participated in mental health counseling and with the help from family, I was able to purchase my own higher education correspondence classes. I currently have a Paralegal Certification; Personal Trainer Certification and I have become a Certified Peer Specialist who currently works in Wyoming's Youthful Offender Transition Program (YOTP) in the Wyoming State Penitentiary. I teach Health and Wellness classes, assist with AA/NA meetings, teach clients how to write legal letters, and I have received Question, Persuade, & Refer (QPR) suicide prevention training. I lead and perform the nightly physical fitness training in the YOTP treatment program, and it is my greatest honor and joy to work with others and provide peer support and rehabilitation to youthful offender inmates every day.
Being a Certified Peer Specialist gives my life that has a depth of value and quality that I cannot put into words. I am a completely different person today because of my recovery and the work I do with others to assist them on their journey towards recovery. Today I am a rehabilitated person living a life of recovery and sobriety that models good behavior and teaches recovery skills while I am incarcerated at the Wyoming State Penitentiary.
Length of Recovery: 6 years, 1 month, 22 days
Recovery Pathway: Inpatient Treatment, Drug Court, Medicated Assisted Treatment (MAT), incarceration, probation, volunteering
Place of Residence: Cody, WY; Park County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Park County Court Supervised Treatment Program/ Open Space Counseling Services
Length of Recovery: 7 years (10/4/15)
Recovery Pathway: Faith based program in prison
Place of Residence: Newcastle, WY; Weston County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Recover Wyoming (TRS), Celebrate Recovery, Undefeated
Length of Recovery: 121 days
Recovery Pathway: Peer Support, AA, IOP at Openings, Pathways to Recovery at Recover Wyoming
Place of Residence: Cheyenne, WY; Laramie County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Lowes RDC 965
Length of Recovery: 19 Years (September 13, 2003)
Recovery Pathway: Long-term treatment and 12 Step Program
Place of Residence: Cheyenne, WY; Laramie County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Retired Founder and Executive Director of Recover Wyoming
Length of Recovery: I am a family member of a person in long-term recovery. My sister will have 20 years of sobriety next September.
Recovery Pathway: When my sister was in active addiction to alcohol, I sought guidance from Al-Anon and a therapist. I also read a lot of books on addiction. In my volunteer involvement with RW I have met many people who have further educated me on addiction.
Place of Residence: Cheyenne, WY; Laramie County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Writer at www.lynngcarlsonwrites.com
Family member recovery coach for Recover Wyoming - I meet with family members of people who are struggling if they want someone to talk with- someone who has had similar experiences. Referrals from RW staff.
Length of Recovery: 3 years, 6 months, 10 days (Feb 12 will be 3, 6, 14 days)
Recovery Pathway: Inpatient treatment and MAT
Place of Residence: Riverton, WY; Fremont County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Volunteers of America- Center of Hope (Clinical Assistant)
Length of Recovery: 37 Years, 7 Months, 18 Days
Recovery Pathway: Inpatient treatment and MAT
Place of Residence: Rawlins/Carbon County
Place of Employment/Volunteer: Youthful Offender Transition Program/W.D.O.C.
Recovery Pathway: Incarceration and volunteer work in Y.O.T.P. programming where I facilitate
and participate in many classes and groups.